man, saturday nite and the infomercials are on already...what's up with that??
seems like every time i start typing, julian starts to wake up, so who knows how long i'll get to write......ah well...
dave's been gone most of the day, helping his friend shawn move into his new house. so i've been mostly alone with the baby all week, cos dave went back to work this past week too. he seems resentful when i hand the baby off to him after he gets home from work. i dunno. i guess i do it cos he sort of needs some "practice" when it comes to getting julian to sleep. he can't do it. well....he can't do it in less than like, two and a half hours. and by that time, he sleeps for a half hour and then he's hungry again.
he's hitting another little growth spurt, so he's up every 2 hours or so wanting to eat... today i had to take little catnaps until about 4:30 in the afternoon before i felt like i could even function.
and the fact that every single day i'm left here by myself while dave's out doing whatever he wants is sort of pissing me off... okay... it's not exactly that way... i mean it's not like he wants to go to work... but he goes other places after work... like to go get food from a restaurant or to the store or something... and it's like....hi, i haven't changed clothes or showered in god knows how long now because every time i start to do something the baby wakes up....but i'm glad you have clean clothes and time to brush your teeth etc etc etc...
i don't want to feel that way.
and yet it's almost 8 pm and i have no husband. the baby's squirming so he'll probably be up soon and i should probably make myself something to eat before that happens, otherwise i won't get to eat anything for another hour or so. grrrrrrr....haha...
AND THERE ARE INFOMERCIALS ON TV!!! WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT ALL ABOUT???
so now i guess i'll go, cos i'm really hungry. and i want to eat. and if i don't. the baby will eat instead. and then i won't get to eat.
food.....good.
somebody come over here and hold this baby for a while so i can shower, eh?
